Learning To Be The One ♥ Shian

你不了解的摩羯座

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从没有人真正了解摩羯座,即使摩羯座自己,也没真正了解自己。摩羯座永远是心碎的,如紫水晶碎片散落一地,无法拼凑。

哪怕轻轻粘合,也会再度化为碎片。

摩羯座脆弱的可怕,经不起任何打击,在人前可以装作快乐,可离开人群,坚强的躯壳便会自动脱落,显露的是一条条触目惊心的伤痕,一滴滴悲痛的眼泪,一块块不堪入目的碎片。

这时摩羯座最脆弱轻轻触碰,都会彻底粉碎,跌落深渊,直至崩溃。

在朋友面前,摩羯座永远是快乐的,没有眼泪,这是摩羯座伪装的面具。

摩羯座宁愿自己承受,也不愿告诉别人心痛的理由。

因为没有谁比自己更能感受到,自己痛彻心扉的感觉,与其告诉朋友,不如独自承受。

所以,没有人了解摩羯座。

这就是摩羯座为什么朋友异常多,却最寂寞、最孤寂的原因。

摩羯座遇到挫折时,从来独自面对!

摩羯座脸上永远一副无所谓的样子,其实内心很脆弱,伤痕累累,天真的灵魂,狠狠面对人生每次的寒冷,谁把谁当真,谁为谁心疼,摩羯座总能将自己隐藏的很好。

朋友有事,摩羯座会倾其全力帮助,摩羯座也是朋友受到伤害停留的港湾,朋友都喜欢向摩羯座吐露心事,因为摩羯座天生就会安慰人,而一旦反目,摩羯座绝对完全不会再理这个人,这是摩羯座的冷酷。

但摩羯座对爱人不行,明明被伤的锥心刺骨,摩羯座依旧脸上装着笑容,嘴里说无所谓,不会做任何伤害爱人的事情,完全让人感觉不到摩羯座心痛。

摩羯座欺骗了所有人,让所有人都认为她不是摩羯座的最爱,可摩羯座欺骗不了自己。

所以,当爱的人需要时,摩羯座是不顾一切的帮助,哪怕做不到也会倾其全力,这是专属摩羯座的温柔.......

摩羯座无时无刻不在带着面具生活,总是微笑,那笑如花,如叶,如星辰,如清风......

也让好多人都开心,而摩羯座内心深处却是紫水晶般的碎片,虽然碎了一地却不失优雅。

只是...拼凑不成原样了,所以选择去承受,承受多了便成为习惯,成了自然。

又有谁知道摩羯座的笑容与心情无关呢?

有时候觉得摩羯座是神的弃儿,因为神从来只是留给摩羯座伤痛,不会给摩羯座治愈伤痛的良药。

所以摩羯座承受力极强,因为无数次伤痕变成坚定的心。

即使神不再容纳摩羯座那缺失的碎片,摩羯座也会自己填满,摩羯座彻底伤之后,再彻底醒过来......


摩羯座,一个习惯用微笑去承受心碎,痛苦的星座.....

摩羯座,永远一副无所谓的样子,其实内心很脆弱。

摩羯座,永远一副不言悔的样子,其实内心已矛盾了千万次。

摩羯座,永远拒绝来自家人以外的关心,因为承受不起。

摩羯座,永远把自己保护的很细密,因为害怕受伤害,所以宁肯不去经历。

摩羯座,会亲手封杀自己的幸福,永远摆出一副高姿态,活在自我的世界里。

摩羯座,会亲手伤害对自己好的人,为了年少时所谓的感觉,现在也不愿说心里真实感受。

摩羯座,最自我的星座,从不考虑他人感受,其实早就有了自己的结局。

摩羯座,少了这样一份包容,多了那样一份完美,注定感情道路迷茫、徘徊。

摩羯座,一直等待欣赏自己的人出现,为她绽放自己的美丽。

摩羯座,等的人出现了,自己又害怕有天会失去而先行放弃,伤了爱的人,也伤了自己。

摩羯座,冷冷的心总是在即将被融化时再次放弃自己的幸福。

摩羯,一个习惯了用微笑去承受心碎,痛苦的星座....

一路由伤痕中走来也将从伤痕中得到永生 摩羯座是天生比较多愁善感所形成的,有着突如其来的忧伤,不管是自己的事还是别人的事都放在心里,魔羯会很认真的听一个朋友的诉说烦恼,有一点不好的是,他可以给别人分析事情,安慰对方,像个智者,而且会不自觉得表现的对什么烦事都很不再乎,所以对一些不了解他的人来说摩羯是快乐的。

摩羯座是个宁愿自己因为承受不住那么多的伤痛郁郁而终,也不愿告诉别人心痛的理由的星座。

因为毕竟他们都不是自己,不会感受到自己痛彻心扉的感觉,与其告诉他们,不如独自承受。

所以,才没人了解摩羯。

这就是摩羯为什么明明朋友异常的多却是最寂寞、最孤寂之星座的原因了。

从来,摩羯的挫折都是独自面对的......

随着烦恼越积越多,自己也有点难以控制情绪,时不时的就闷闷的一个人呆着,当朋友问起为什么不开心时摩羯还是会用转移话题,而不说原因。

摩羯无时无刻不在带着面具生活,他们总是微笑,那笑如花,如叶,如星辰,如清风......

也让好多人都开心,似乎摩羯座的存在就是一个开心果,给每个地方带去了欢乐,而我们摩羯的内心深处却是紫水晶般的碎片,虽然碎掉了一地了却仍旧不失优雅。

只是....拼凑不成原有的样子了,所以只有选择去承受,承受得多了便成了习惯,成了自然。

又有谁会知道摩羯的笑容是与心情无关的呢?

但事实上魔羯又是一个很单纯的星座,很容易相信别人,很喜欢付出,只要对方也对自己好。

所以在一起久了就很容易了解他的矛盾性格,就因为他太想信身边的人,所以通常都是被身边的人出卖伤害。一次次的受伤使魔羯失去了安全感,变的不再相信,不再轻易付出。

然后魔羯就变的更加的寂寞孤独。

有时候我会觉得摩羯是神的弃儿,因为神从来只是留给摩羯伤痛,不会留给摩羯治愈伤痛的良药。

所以摩羯的承受力才极强,因为那是因无数次伤痕而坚定不移的心。

即使神不再容纳我们,那么缺失了的碎片我们也会自己去填,彻底的伤之后,再彻底的醒过来......

摩羯,一个习惯用微笑去承受心碎,痛苦的星座。


If you will read all of this. I said : Thank You :)


But I think. Nobody will read this. So much of bullshit :D





Last paper to Go !

Hope I can pass bah !

Cheeer ! :) <3








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Long Post ? :D

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Life recently not bad over here !
Having loads of fun with my friends :D
Errr what to said ?

Share some photo first :)

Drama Make Up :O

KL family ! <3

Next, having steamboat with my friends.
* Get shocked when get in her house cuz I thought only few of us joined in ><
She invited all her classmate and also lecturer and tutor.
But soon knew some of them and getting better I guess :D
Having a talk with all of them untill midnight.
Crap and fooling around. Just , Enjoyed alot with them !
We are just Crazy ! XD

Pichaasss here :D

Yeah ! :D

Homestay look :O

Zhiwei, Kai Jie and Me :)

Fat hiao ! :P
* The one ( Mos ) bite my chest on that night. Freaking Pain man ! lol

Act cute :X

Carson's face funny ! XD


Next, went for 舞蹈剧 ‘天使帮不见了’ with CLS members :)
The story is about a Angel who like to lies alot.
And the lesson of this drama is teach us do not LIE to peoples ! lol
Actually this is a 儿童剧. But we still go for it.
Go and see and learn :D
Nice and the first time very near with the stage.
All of us sitting infront of the stage. Having interaction with actors.
So much fun with them :D
We were just back to the children's world XD

Pichaass again :)

Before get in the theather.

Chu Hui Sorpo :P

Carson :D

Mos :)

Mos, Shian and Maggie :)

=D

Raggghhhhh ! lol

红姐姐 :)

Drama Start :))

I love their costume so much !

The End <3


Group photo :)

CLS members :)


Next, share someting to you all ! :D

Kai Jie
* My treasurer on fund raising event. Well done and thanks for ur help.
You are a good helper :)
I love her attidude perhaps ? :D
Keep it up ! :)

Carson Phang :D
* The only girl I see your face and respond will make me laugh.
LOL your acting really damn funny ><
A very nice girl and who always hope all around her peoples can stay happy always.
Keep it up ! Thanks for support and helping me ! :))

Mos ! :D ( my fake gf -.- )
* Hoho. The only girl who will scared me off :O
Try to change ur attidude to be better. You will be happy more :P
Well. Your thinking and attidude quite special for me.
Conclusion : You got ur own style ! :D
Keep it up ! Thanks for support and helping me too !
## I know you guys helped me alot. I never blind :)
Thanks and I appreciate alot ! :))


Deon Goh
* Knew you through Chu Hui. Well you are friendly actually.
Anyway. Try be positive and stay happy :PP
All of us never abandon you. Cares you ! :))
Remember human being is stay happy lor :P
Cheer ya ! We always be with you :D

Wiion Gan
* Hoho handsome guy :P
You're funny when saying rude word LOL.
And you always sing song XD
A boy who got his own world in the heart :P Who can be ur Key to open your heart ?
Heheeee. Stay happy always ! :D

Xiao Bai
* Close to you when cheer leading practice.
Hohoho ! :P No comment :P

Khai Sing
* Although not really knew you well.
But take good care urself lar :D You always look tired ><
Cheer ! :))

Miao ! :D
* hoho you're just like a mother style.
Always will cares on others. How about you ? :P
Wish you all the best lar :D

Jingyi ! :D
* Excited ! We always called her Ben Dan !
Cuz she really stupid lor XDD :P
The way she thinks really totally different with normal Human . lol
A kai xin guo for us. Always let us Zat :P
May ur dreams come true lar :DD

Chu Hui :D ( My Boyfriend @@ )
* Hohoho ! You ar ! A very cute and friendly girl for me lar.
Hahaha always cares on others. How about you neh ?
Dont hide on somewhere and cries alone :P Dont pretend strong although you are :P
Cheer and Stay happy always lar :)
All of us are always be with you. Take care !

Kendo ! :D
* The one who bring me up alot. Really appreciate and thanks alot !
You teached me alot. :))
Well. others dunid to know what I have learned :P
I am Who I am :)
I dont care on how others talked about me.
Because you don't know me well :)

Cheer and dont stress alot ! :P


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Heheeee nonid comment so much lar.
Just be the way you are :)
Love you guys ! <3
Cheer always :)) Smile :))



Today having MV shooting with chu hui :)
Was very tired day . Nice try for us :D
Well done for chu hui being singer :P
Wait for my last scene on next week :)
Good Luck !


So what ? Go then Go.
Did you think of us ?

Fuck it ! you are just let me so disappointed !
I will take care of you , dad :)
is time to rest now :)

No you. This family are broke.
What would will be ? I dont wanna think of it.
REALLY TIRED.

Can you imagine how is the feel when telling all the truth to you ?
Can you imagine how pain is my heart when you lies to me ?
Fed Up.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
And you mother fucker. Just wait and see :)
This is what you will get :))

Sorry for the rude again . This is the last time for me to talked about this anymore :)





Take care and Stay happy always :)










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纯粹地简单 :)

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我的要求并不多。真的。
我并不奢求什么,我只希望我的世界能单纯点、纯粹点、简单点。

我的世界,不需要太多色彩,几抹颜色组成的温暖就足以令我满足地活在其中。快乐又自在。:)
在那儿的一个微笑,一句问候,一个拥抱将会是那么简单,没有利用,没有欺诈,没有企图,有的只不过是最单纯的的出发点与关怀。

我一直在相信心中的那个世界是存在的。我坚信在这个复杂世界中的某个角落里,她坚强地存活着,等待着我们去发现她。
——所以,我从不放弃地寻找她。

最近我真得很累。觉得自己容易想太多,倔强又让自己转牛角尖。
真希望,我能尽快释怀。那样,我将离我心目中的简单世界更进一步了。:)

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——我想,我们都是一样的。

我想相信自己是坚强的。
所以,我把懦弱藏起来,
藏在一个就连自己都不知道的地方。

因为害怕失去,所以才会没有安全感。
最害怕失去的,莫过于『情』。亲情,友情,爱情。
害怕的那方,总是处于卑微的那一方,
小心翼翼地维持那段薄如蝉翼的感情。
不敢喧哗,不敢表达,不敢承认。
只为了想永恒地拥有那短暂的『情』。

其实,转身并不容易。
往往在转身以后,我们将失去一切。
我们所告别的,不只是疼痛,也是曾有的美好。
所以,转身是需要领悟与莫大勇气。
转身以后,或许,相见只能在回忆中。

我们都是演员。天生的演员。
我们都笑着说没事;我们都能擦肩而过;
我们都能在他或她的面前说我们过得很好。
其实,我们的心在哭泣;其实,我们都很在意对方;
其实,我们过得一点都不好。
但为了那点自尊和面子,我们都继续违背心意地
表演。

有时候,把失望愤怒写出来,
不为什么,只为了得到那么一个人的注意。


完全接受不到这些事情会发生在我身上,
身为儿女,只有你能挽回一切。
一心想回来休息,但我想。
:))
你要我给你什么样的反应?

你,到底怎么了?




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一个人只有一个心脏,却有两个心房。一个住着快乐,一个住着悲伤​。
不要笑得太大声,不然会吵醒旁边的悲伤。

害怕了一个人的冷清;害怕了夜晚时的宁静;害怕了睹物而思人;害​怕了触景而伤情.
原来,想要刻意忘记的,却会情不自禁的想起;想​要放弃的,却无法做到洒脱的放手;
有些感情,明明知道不会再继续​;有些人,明明知道不值得珍惜;就算嘴里说着无所谓,而面对曾经​深爱的人,我也无法做到心如止水.








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Back Again :D

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I'm back again.
Just busy with fund raising event.
Is so exhausted ! Tiring like hell ><
Got so much of experience throughout this event.
Up and Down. Stress, Bond btw my team and so on.
Makes me learn anot and get much more close with all my team members !
:))

Anyway, I still not a good leader for them :(
Sorry to them. Although cannot reach RM2500 target.
But at last can cover up the loss.
Hmm. Aihss. Don't wanna say so much here.
Smile for it :))

You know , I know :)

Of course wanna thanks so much to all my team members who helped and support me through this event. THANKS SO MUCHH ! Hope our bond still can remain :))
Thanks you guys ! Take a rest now :D

Btw, having fun with cheer leading members when we are having practising.
Although very tired. But we still afford to dance for it.
The day before perform we dance till 2am only back.
:O
Finally our performance are successful and is worth for it :DD
Love you guys ! <3

Next share some photo here.
:)

Fund Raising Theme.

The flyer. Thanks to the designer :)


18 xx. LOL


18 xx . LOL

After dinner make some fun LOL

Cheer Leading ! Oh Yeah ! :D <3

With Lucas :)

Cassie and Shian :)

CLS Committee :D

=D


I heart This ! <3

Was shooting by Lucas for his assignment :D


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Nothing much to say dy.
As usual. Just wanna back hometown and relax myself.
Next week i wil back Kuantan ! Woohoo ! :D

Bout family problem ?
Don't wanna think about it. FAN ENOUGH ! Fuck..

BERSIH !
TAMADE ! KL all block.
Want back hometown also cannot !

Demokrasi ? Nah oOo
Feel very LAME SHIT ! oOo








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Long Post ? :D

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I'm back again ! :D
Recenlty busy with Assignment and college life.
Still got one assignment need pass up next week and yet i not yet touch at all -.-
Just ! What also assignment @@

Last weeks ago joined CLS Camp.
Hahaa having alot of fun over there and knew many friends :)
Especially my group. You guys are just awesome !
We are the Best :D <3

And one more thing.
On week 10 we have to organize a Fund raising event in college.
Hope the best for it.
Having meeting with all the members ytd.
Hope all of us can work as a team :)

Is already about week 4 in college.
Slowly used to it in KL here.
Sometime out for yc with kendo and his friends.
Ytd break my record. 530AM only reach home @@
Wth , I missed two class cuz of overslept ><

Learn something from the senior.
All are crazy enough and is totally different with Kuantan gang. lols
Anyway, I think they still duno me well yet.
I'm just a simple boy with no any purpose :))

Well , Week 6 having exam for QS .
Soon come together. Die @@

Dont wanna say so much. Share some picture here.
OLD One XD

When I was a KID. XD

Family <3

Odd job :)

Lalala ~ St John :D

2009 birtday celebration :)

Playing wii. Nice one ! :D

Sotplug performance @ MGSS

Best camp Ever !


University Malaya.

SMK ST Thomas International Understanding Night :)

:D

Me and Qian :)

The only one who most like to pull my ears LOL

Lynn's birthday Suprice :)

Gathering with my classmate before I Leave :)

Fun with them before I leave :)

Yen said I never smile when rehearsal. Did I ? Lols

:PP

Kiwanis Charity Night ! :D


Fun at tc after Dinner :)

Me and Szeying :)
The only picture we took before I leave.

Love this Muchiiee ! <3

The winner of the drama :D

Hiak ! All lose to me. XD

Kendo ! Our angel XD

Wonderful Camp :)


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用你的眼睛去看透一却,
人,还真不简单啊。

:))


Capricon won't simply go and shoot someone.
Excpet they are over acting :)

And just only for the one who capricon care the most :)

Those who are born on 1st of January .
You are the lucky one ! :)









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